Senior year, we have made it this far. With the swearing in of the latest group, my Omnibus (training group) has become the oldest kids on the block. Now we can give the freshman class swirlies and any other stereotypical punishment.
With this change in status, it finally has hit me that my time here in Ecuador is rapidly coming to an end. I find myself living less in the present as I am caught between thoughts about my past here and the future that awaits me. Have I accomplished what I set out to do here in Peace Corps? Have I taken full advantage of this experience? Have I made a difference?
I think the questions about the past scare me less than those of the future. The questions of readiness to become a functional member of society in the United States scare me the most. I am ready for the next phase of my life, but the open-ended ness of that is what causes any doubt.
